Current mood:

frustrated

I guess I need some sort of rebound...
I just ran in to Rodrigo. I was heading to the post office and I saw him on the way. We did this awkward look at each other and then I said "hi" while he just kinda smiled coyly. We didn't even stop to talk. Awkward. It was odd that I saw him too because just yesterday I was going through facebook and noticed that he no longer had a profile and i was like "noooooooo how else am I going to know he's alive?"

So I'm attempting to contact Alvaro (who I haven't seen in 2 weeks because he's really busy) just to feel better about myself.

I hate this. I wish I had some sort of purpose in my life so I wouldn't feel this stupid need to be liked by dumb guys. I wish there was something I was doing with my life that had any sort of meaning, but no I'm boring and rotting here. Last year around this time I was afraid that this very thing was going to happen, and it has. I mean not the whole men situation, but this lack of purpose.